I remember it like it was yesterday.
I had decided to start a conference.
I didn’t even know if it could work as a thing.
But I dreamt it, so I wanted to do it.
We had had our first year and I thought it went incredibly well.
The second year rolled around and I started having all kinds of fears.
It was the end of July. The conference was in 2 weeks.
We had 8 people signed up.
And 2 of them were my own kids.
What was I doing? I had no clue.
Why was I doing this? I knew. I knew the why.
I wanted Christian teenagers to have an event for them. Just them.
Not a place where they had to bring their unsaved friends and sit by silently praying for salvations the whole time.
Not that there is not a place for that, there certainly IS.
But I wanted something different. I wanted something for Christian teen leaders.
Leaders who wanted to dream big and wanted to change the world…and not just change the world.
But change the world for Christ.
And there’s a difference.
I dream big, and I don’t like to quit.
I dream big and I like to believe I can do hard things.
But this seemed stupid. Would it even work? How could I know?
What if no one else even showed up?
I got a text from my friend Jessica Lauren and she said – you have to keep going. Even if it impacts one teen, is it enough?
The answer was yes. A million times over yes, but sometimes you just need people to remind you.
People did show up. 60 of them.
And the next year a little more.
Then this year? I’m hoping for 100.
See, I don’t want to sit around and wait.
If I see people hurting, if I see a need, if I dream a dream, It has to be me that takes action.
It has to be me.
I am not going to let fear rule me.
I am not going to let negative people drag me down.
I am not going to let discouragement set in.
I am going to keep dreaming and keep dreaming big.
I have notebooks to prove I’ve been doing this for a while, and I don’t plan to stop now.
What if we all felt that way?
What if you saw a need and you filled the need instead of complained about it, or got discouraged about it?
What if you saw people hurting and you stepped up and stepped in?
What if you saw potential and you looked past the negativity and believed anyways.
Believed that God can do bigger things than you can ever dream?
See, I am struggling in my faith right now. Not gonna lie.
There are so many things that aren’t making sense.
There are so many things that I am waiting on an answer for.
There are so many things I am waiting for God to MOVE on…but this one thing I can not forget.
God is always moving.
It’s funny that I can feel like things are just not happening because nothing is literally happening.
Oh, no my friend. God is always moving.
He is working out details that I could never dream need to be worked out.
He is working in people, through people, through circumstances, and just planning out his reveal.
I love picturing this, and I so need this mental picture.
In the book of Daniel, it talks about how God answered Daniel’s prayer WHILE DANIEL WAS STILL PRAYING!
But get this…the “answer” did not come that same day. But God answered and started working out all the details while Daniel was still praying!
Remember in the book of Esther?
Mordecai saved the life of the king. He never got recognition.
Doesn’t that seem like God did not reward? Doesn’t that seem like God didn’t care?
Not a chance.
It wasn’t until YEARS later, that God saved that little act of heroism for an incredible event that Mordecai never could have dreamed.
Because… in case you haven’t gotten it
God is always moving.
Don’t be fooled into thinking that God has forgotten you.
Don’t be fooled into thinking that you can not be used.
God moves. And he moves through us.
The things I am praying about? I am going to keep working at.
I am going to keep dreaming, keep planning, keep acting, even when I don’t see results.
I don’t want to wait for someone else.
It has to be me!
I want it to be me!
And even when I don’t see the results I want, even when I don’t see God moving in my timing, I will not doubt that he is not.
And his plan? It’s always better than mine anyways.
Don’t lose heart. Don’t give up.
Keep pushing and never forget that