do you ever feel like you are living your life, and people just have no idea who you really are or what you are really going through? before i continue, i would like to say that i am not at all complaining. where i am in my life right now, i am extremely happy. content. satisfied. there are just times when i look around and feel like…all these people i see so often have no idea what is going on in my life. obviously, there are some that do.
being in ministry, you pour your life into people constantly. there are pros and cons to that. there is the verse in 2 corinthians that says “I will very gladly spend and be spent for you; though the more abundantly i love you, the less i be loved.”
it seems like the more time you put into certain people, the less you get in return. i only mean that the people that have hurt me the most are the ones that i put the most time into. BUT i have to “VERY GLADLY spend and be spent!”
i feel like there is a lot going on in my life right now…
that picture describes some of it. i feel like there are very few people who know about most of it. but you know what i love? i have a husband who knows it all. and is a part of most of it! i know that i am blessed in that way. i don’t feel like i NEED to have a friend that knows everything about my needs and my wants. i enjoy feeling needed, not needy. i want to continue pouring my life into other people. yes, you do take the risk of being hurt. greatly. but you also have the chance of finding a life-long friend. it’s worth the risk.